i dislike parenting
I dislike parenting. I dislike parenting. I dislike the part of parenting when you have to disappoint your kids and make decisions for their own good. And when you do you feel like sh*t because then they are mad at you and sad over the decision at the same time. And yet, you know in the long run it’s the healthy decision for them they just don’t realize it in the moment. You know what I dislike about parenting the most? Doing it alone because then you have to take the entire
Jan 32 min read
find a trashcan
The World is not your trashcan. Obviously, this Chick-fil-A customer doesn’t believe in the same values the franchise has if they can so boldly throw their lunch out the window at Lake Shawnee. There are plenty of trash cans all over the place here. In fact, if getting out of your car is too exerting for you - I’m gonna bet you could find a trashcan to pull up to without getting out of your car. I never understand how a person can take a large bag like this and just throw it
Dec 30, 20251 min read
stay alive ... please
I want you to stay alive. That’s what I think when I hear of those who find they simply cannot go on. I don’t know who needs to hear this but I know someone does. I read about those who feel they can’t go on or … they chose not to and my heart breaks. I think about how they try to reach others and we don’t know the cues. We don’t try to get to know them. Today, while my girls went to their grams house, I loaded up Bentley and we went to visit the residents at the agency I wor
Dec 29, 20252 min read
only love can drive out hate so bravely speak up and against ... well you know
Prologue: Lots to read. But do you want to keep scaling past information to justify your silence? Or worse, to place your political belief over the fear of ridicule? Of losing friends? Business? If you speak the truth as Jesus did, then you won’t be chastised for it. As a friend once told me: if they don’t like what you’re serving they aren’t your people. I am glad some are no longer my ‘people’ because I don’t want those kind in my life berating me for sticking up for what’s
Dec 17, 20254 min read
losing the weight … of depression and negativity
Since November 3 I have not drank. There are times and I miss it. Like the chugging down a seltzer and feeling the slight buzz and then the mental invincibility. But recalling how though I could feel that surface level mental strength I still had the underlying feeling of dread, hurt, frustration and depression. It honestly made me mad. I knew what I was trying to accomplish by drinking. It made me ‘happy.’ I honestly enjoyed going out and having a few. But … I looked at myse
Dec 13, 20254 min read
no, not the 'r' word - done gone too far
I will always stand up and speak for those who cannot and for the oppressed. Write when it hurts. Write when the feelings are strong. They are strong now. To the point my stomach is in knots and my heart in my throat. That is how much I feel things. I am empathetic to the hilt. I feel this way because of what the 'pres' of our country said about a governor. He called him a re**rd. Even writing about it just churns my stomach. Makes me feel ill and pain. Pain for those who
Nov 28, 20254 min read
i was reminded of my purpose, but not until later
I wrote an entire blog last night and for some reason, it did not save. This is the 3rd time this has happened to me. When will I ever learn? As usual, I will use this as a learning experience, but furthermore, an opportunity to ask God if what I wrote needed to be changed. It sucks to have so many feelings and emotions because when you do, you want to get them out right away. Like NOW! Not like now, as in right now - but I mean this hypothetically. Last night I was writi
Nov 25, 20256 min read
